I woke up today to the sound of my brother's laugh, my mom's teasing tone and my dad's cheerful note of a voice. And the sky was a perfect blue with the sun shining brightly.

I had vanilla ice cream topped with cornflakes and chocolate sauce while sitting cross-legged on my comfortable bed and the much-loved 'マイガール' playing in the background as the clear sky and green leaves greeted me.

I had my quilt cover changed to the blue bubbles one which equates to a fresh smelling scent of laundry detergent and an extra soft feel on my bed.

And all that - equates to happiness :D ♥

One way: I got teased by a colleague for being viewed as a child who needed to finish her homework before she could run off to play - because I had wanted to leave the office for a bit to run some errands which was work-related, and I had to ask permission and thus earned an 'okay, so as long as you finish your work' XD It was funny and I had humored along by making sure I informed of my completion of homework and that I'll be leaving - like a good child would before she runs out to play :D

And the other: I teased the heck out of my superior for being late when we have repeatedly said that we should always be punctual. I don't know why he let me get away with it - probably because he was very much amused and rushed - but I sure hope he doesn't hold it against me XD I need to remind myself to steer clear of him for a bit, just in case :D

There are times when I feel myself barely able there to catch the ball when it comes flying at me, whizzing, soaring in the air and if I'm lucky - I catch it with a relief and happy breath but there are times like today, it hits me in the face with a painful pang of realization that I'm not always going to be able to catch and control everything around me.

And so, that deduces me into feeling - miserable, to say the least.

I'm not quite feeling apologetic to anyone, but more to myself - I'm sorry that I allow myself to be disappointed and despaired by a ball I missed :(

I almost forgot about it, but just for kicks like I would do every year, here's my birthday wish list for this year:

• Happiness in a bottle for each day
• A smile every morning
• Warm feelings at every opportunity
• Laughter at all times, even at random moments
• Amusement in the simplest of things
• A bit of magic in every day

And that's it :) The extravagant one can be found here :)

I was at work till late 7-ish yesterday - rushing with compilation of CDs, merchandise, press releases, before fleeing to The Curve for work related stuff and by the time I got home at 9, I had to be up again by 6am today and off to the office by 7.30am to complete the needed CDs before 8am. All this and only to have been told that only two members of the press showed up for the supposed press interview for the event that was organized by our company's affiliate. It's honestly disappointing that I wish my superior didn't bother to tell me about it. As he did so, I could feel myself offering the most blank, expressionless face possible and my other superior beside me was very much silent cause I think she knew that the news was simply the least I'd like to hear at the moment when I was really tired and eager to just go home for the day.

And I didn't even get to finish the 50,000 words for Nanowrimo :( I got to 42,388 words when midnight came about. Partially my fault for not being productive enough during the earlier weeks and my recent weekend was spent running off and around Malacca town with Mellie for the Malacca Art & Performance Festival - live art at its best in the midst of the historically-rich city. It was intense, raw and truly amazing. We were rained on but it was an experience that we both truly enjoyed; plus, it was a last minute trip planned on Thursday evening, finalized on Friday morning, before we were off to Malacca on Saturday morning :)

So here I am feeling off because it's rather bleak-looking outside - and because I can't seem to find my happy place at the moment :(